Back to work

Hey sweet baby,

I had to go back to work yesterday. It was so very hard. I really can't express how much it hurt my heart to kiss you goodbye. You stayed with Dede and had a great day. Fortunately, I was able to go to her house at lunch and just sit and hold you. You were asleep and probably didn't even know I was there. I have to keep telling myself that you are too young to know, that I am working to help provide for our family, that you are in the best situation. For the record, it was just as hard to leave you at lunch as it was that morning. Today was much easier which makes me hopeful for tomorrow. I can't foresee a time when it will be effortless or pleasant for me to go to work while you are somewhere else.

I love you and miss you every minute we're apart!
Mommy