Balancing Act

I'm really struggling with finding the time and content to write about. I work - feels like all the time. When I'm not at work, I'm feeding you, changing you, playing with you, cuddling you, or putting you to sleep, spending time with Daddy, doing chores, running or errands.

You and Dede (and Pawpaw when he's in town) have so much fun together during the day. I check in often but I really can't think about it much. It is bittersweet. I miss you so much. I miss you right now and you're in the other room!

You are growing up so fast. I am really trying to soak up each moment with you and enjoy each and every little thing about you at this age. It's hard not to wish for a time when you can talk to me and tell me what you want or how your day was, or to wish for you to have more mobility so that you can explore all the things you stare at now. I really don't think I'm ready for you to be mobile or talk yet. I love the little ball of joy that you are right this minute... staring at your hand as if it's not even yours, catching the glimmer of a light (any light) and "talking" to it as if it were calling your name, smiling bigger than my heart can hold at the very sight of someone you know, studying with pensive eyes the people you don't know, laughing... oh the laughing brings me to tears.

I pray that I'm able to appreciate and deeply experience every stage of your life. I don't want to wish it away.

You had your 4 month check up Friday, December 9th.  Dr. Quizon said you were very healthy and precious. We already knew that. You weigh 15lbs (44th percentile) and are 24.5 inches long (22nd percentile). Short and wide... like mommy and daddy :). Your hair is still very reddish in the sunshine. Your cheeks are ruddy too because of your eczema during this cold weather.

I'll try to put some pictures up later this week...